I’m really excited about the journey that God has been taking me on lately. This journey of knowing Him more and in a new way. And I’m reading Crazy Love (by Francis Chan) right now, which totally fits the theme.
And what theme is this? Falling in love.
I’m falling in love with my Savior, more and more everyday. And so constantly overwhelmed by how much He loves me and what He thinks about me.
I think (looking back) that what really sparked this in a big way was a realization I had. In Revelation 2:4, Jesus says to the church in Ephesus - Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first. This hit me pretty hard. Not as much in a “darn, I’m doing that. I’m forsaking Him” as a “First love. He should be my first love. Is He? Or why is He not?”
What does a life look like that’s completely and overwhelmingly in love with Jesus? How could I describe that? I don’t completely know how. But here’s what comes to mind:
Craving time spent with Him; like a little child running into daddy’s arms when he gets back from work. Hanging onto His every word as if I couldn’t get enough; like a young woman who’s just been complimented by the man she loves. Wanting to see the world through His eyes; because I desperately want to understand why He loves what He does.
I don’t think I can fully express how much I want this to be a reality in my life. I want people to see me and the way I act and be able to tell that my life is radically different. People do radical things when they’re in love, right? How much more should this be reality when we’re in love with a Savior who gave His life for us – the greatest expression of love ever shown to, well, anyone. How can we not love Him after that? And I don’t mean that in a “well gosh, He loves you.. I guess you can probably find it somewhere within you to love Him back..right?”
NO! I mean that in a WOW can you believe how amazing He is? Look at the majesty of the UNIVERSE! The stars, the galaxies, the vastness that we can never fully understand! Doesn’t that just excite you?? And then thinking about the fact that He created it with you in mind. With YOU in mind. And He loves you so desperately that He thinks about you every single second of every day. And more than that. And He wants the best for you, even more than the best dad in the world ever could.
I’m sorry. I have to take a moment here to just think about this. It blows my mind – in a good way. Like… WOW!
I want to live like I know I’m loved. And what’s even more, I want to learn to love people like He does. And maybe someday be able to put this coherently into words… It’s all a journey and process though, right? Stick around, I’ll take you on my adventure.
On a similarly contextual note, wedding photos that I shot from this weekend (because God likes to perfectly time the lessons that He teaches me) can be found here: http://kdphoto3.wordpress.com/2012/06/07/i-now-pronounce-you/